Relishing

by Nancy Colasurdo on February 4, 2012

After I interviewed jewelry designer Jennifer Fisher yesterday afternoon for a future Game Plan column, I left her showroom to enjoy a bit of SoHo in the unseasonably mild temps we’re having in the Northeast. I wound up browsing in the Shabby Chic couture store and in Philip Lim. Then, making my way for a stroll back to the West Village, I saw a Diane von Furstenberg store.

Well, hello.

I walked in and immediately laughed because there was a little pink lip-shaped change purse that I had just ‘pinned’ on Pinterest. Fun to see it in person. But then my eyes drifted to a four-pack of Diet Coke bottles (only made of tin, like cans) featuring iconic DVF designs.

During a trip to Chicago in the fall, I had taken home my tin Diet Coke bottle from the Art Institute of Chicago at the prodding of my friend when she saw how lit up I was when I saw it. There is currently a wisp of eucalyptus in that one in my kitchen. I had seen these the first time at the National Constitution Center  in Philadelphia for the Princess Diana exhibit a few years ago. Just something about the shape and design that appeals to me. Add in some DVF designs and it’s a no-brainer purchase.

Already quite the happy camper, I let my eyes wander over the clothes. They stopped short on a pink sweater. A must try. The salesgirl asked me what size and I told her my DVF dresses and jeans are size 12, so the largest they have would be best. That was a ‘medium/large.’ The shape of the sweater is over-sized, but despite my unmistakable curves it looked like I had absolutely no figure in this frock.

Good for my wallet, I thought. But then I asked her to bring me the smaller size. I put it on and it looked and felt sooooooooo good. Bright pink skimming over my black jeggings and knee-high boots. Slouchy but fitted somehow, as only good clothes can be. I put on my glasses to check my Blackberry for messages and noted the tag on the sweater (which I couldn’t see clearly before) said “Petite/Small.” As if there was any question then and there that my ego would lead the way on that purchase.

As I strolled out of there with my vibrant lip-emblazoned shopping bag, I knew what had to come next. Because, of course, that purchase meant that the impending happy hour would be curtailed to a few drinks. No dinner. No longer in the budget. But I couldn’t put alcohol in my empty stomach, so off to Gray’s Papaya in the West Village before meeting friends at happy hour in Hoboken.

Recession special — two hotdogs and a Diet Coke. Mine comes with sauerkraut, relish and mustard. The beauty of the experience is standing at the counter and eating and people watching on the corner of Eighth Street and Sixth Avenue. I thought about how it can’t be common for a woman carrying a DVF bag to be wolfing down hotdogs at Gray’s Papaya. And how if I saw anyone I knew it would feel a little like they caught me at a crack house.

By the way, did I mention the relish is new? At least to me. That was always the one disadvantage to Gray’s that I had overlooked because the hotdogs are so darned good. But now, relish.

Relish.

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Cultivating ‘The Prosperous Heart’

by Nancy Colasurdo on February 3, 2012

It has been my pleasure on several occasions to interview author Julia Cameron. This time it was about her book with Emma Lively called The Prosperous Heart. Another 12-week program (a la The Artist’s Way), only it offers a way to delve into our definition of prosperity via the spirit. I also spoke with Lively and she offered some wonderful insight.

Today’s Game Plan: Our Heart Beats, Maybe We Should Listen

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Putting more ‘unfettered’ in ‘Unfettered 50′

by Nancy Colasurdo on February 2, 2012

Let me tell you about 50. Unlike, say, 20 years ago, I can almost take constructive criticism like an adult. So when my friend wrote me this evening to tell me he thinks I’m holding back in my “Unfettered 50″ blog posts, I got filled up with tears but I also went and scrutinized them a bit. On a few I think he’s crazy, but on others he had a point.

But something more was in play. I was only a wee bit defensive. More like feeling grateful I have chosen to surround myself with smart, honest people. This friend once told me something I’d written hadn’t an ounce of vulnerability. Yep, he’s good. So why was I biting my lip to hold back the water fall?

Duh. Because he was right. I was holding something back.

I un-Friended someone I love on Facebook this week. To paraphrase a line from the Sex and the City movie, I love him but I love me more. I invested a lot of time and emotional energy in him, hoping for romance at one point but agreeing to friendship when that seemed my only choice. The connection was that good. The friendship has been strong but challenging.

Finally this week, though, the price to be friends with him became too high. His Facebook posts are a reminder of what isn’t. My Facebook feed is a place I go to relax with the terrific community I’ve built and I want to keep it that way. I can no longer be “big” about it at my own peril.

So with a click of my mouse I was free. That’s how it felt when I un-Friended him. Incredibly liberating. Mature and weirdly “junior high” at the same time. Take your shot at happiness, my friend, while I take a deep breath into mine.

The next day I woke up and while I was preparing breakfast I looked at the photo he’d taken in Ireland that I’d blown up and had framed for my wall. I wrote about it in another blog post but didn’t fully explain the weight behind taking it down. When he was here a month ago I saw him glance into the kitchen to see if it was still there. It meant something to him that it was.

I have no bitterness around any of this. As I wrapped the picture in plastic and put it away, I remembered telling him I liked “life through his lens.” He loved that because he’s a man who appreciates words. It felt soothing to think of the memory.

After breakfast and a workout, I was walking by Carlo’s Bakery (yes, home of Cake Boss) and, lo and behold, there was no line. I walked in and bought two chocolate-covered strawberries, my absolute favorite treat there. It had been over a year since indulging in them because this now nationally acclaimed hotspot is always mobbed.

From there I visited a shop where I could buy some flowers and walked out with two bouquets — Gerbera daisies and tulips. As I walked through my home gazing at the fresh flowers, eating a strawberry, it felt like the Universe had given me my own special Valentine’s Day filled with nurturing self-love.

Now I feel raw and euphoric and more like me than I’ve felt in a long, long time.

And I take criticism pretty well, too.

Imagine that.

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Body love

by Nancy Colasurdo on February 2, 2012

In separate conversations with some friends this week, the subject of our bodies came up. We’re all between 49 and 55. At one time this would have been incessant breathless chatter about the latest gimmick in cardio or some infantilizing language about how “good” or “bad” we were at lunch.

This week’s dialogue produced some laughs and some basic sharing, but what I loved was the insight I had when my friend brought up the concept of the flat stomach being a thing of the past. Apparently common wisdom dictates that’s pretty much the reality “at our age.”

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Suddenly it hit me that, finally, there is an advantage to never having had a flat stomach my entire life — I don’t miss it!

Not to sound like I’m resigned to couch potato status or anything. I feel better than ever before. I lift weights, punch a bag, do yoga and walk almost everywhere because I live an urban life. I eat a lot of salads and fruit, but I don’t pass up rice pudding if I’m really craving it and I’m an Italian woman who adores her pasta. Today I slathered peanut butter and jelly on some whole wheat toast (two slices) and devoured it like someone was going to take it away.

I’ve let go of the lamenting when I see a primo body on another woman. She looks great, but so do I. This is me. It’s who I’m supposed to be. It’s how I’m supposed to look. Thinking any other way is not honoring the Creator. This body is alive and pumping, it feels pleasure and pain and is unquestionably a miracle in its functioning and capacity.

I don’t have a flat gut. I have a very healthy appetite. When I was younger and heavier I would have hesitated to admit either. And I would have stared longingly at some other woman’s tight butt or toned abs and measured myself against it.

Now I’m 50. My body is precious. You’ve gotta love it and have faith it will love you back.

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A dash of angst

by Nancy Colasurdo on February 1, 2012

I was walking around my town running errands last week and the same poster kept hitting me. A well-intended one, but something about it kept bothering me because it was advocating an anxiety-free life. Here’s what happened when I thought it through.

Today’s Game Plan: Why We All Need Anxiety in Our Lives

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Picture perfect

by Nancy Colasurdo on January 31, 2012

I woke up this morning and made oatmeal. On my kitchen wall was a photo of a window in Ireland that a friend took. I had it blown up and framed because I really like how the light comes through the ferns.

But it never really fit the wall. The scale was off. I tried to make it work. Had a few ideas that were never quite right.

This morning I took it down and replaced it with a piece of art that used to hang there. It’s painted silk. It’s a bunch of fish in vibrant reds, pinks, blues. I painted it while in Turks and Caicos many years ago and it’s a reminder of how much fun it is to blast out of your creative comfort zone. I had never painted anything before that day. Years later when I had it framed, the woman in the frame shop took great care with it and we put it in pewter.

It is a perfect fit on the wall again. Later I bought some multi-colored Gerbera daisies for the table in front of it because I just adore their bright, lively vibe.

There are so many symbolic meanings for fish, but today I’m going with the Buddhist one: happiness and freedom.

On my wall. In my life.

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Anger unleashed

by Nancy Colasurdo on January 30, 2012

Went through a nice, long period of learning to be more spiritual in my 40s. It was great to acquire more knowledge, go within and strive to wipe out anger.

Now, with the dawn of 50 a month ago (and maybe a little before), I realize anger is healthy and often more than appropriate. Where I used to think it was a compliment to be called a “class act” in certain situations, now I  see it as another way of saying “You really took that kick in the teeth well. Thank you for not expressing what you’re really feeling because that would have made me so uncomfortable.”

Uh huh.

I am so over the B.S. This whole idea of writing under the heading of “Unfettered 50″ is like a get-out-of-jail-free card.

I am a person who sees the good in people, the glass half-full in most scenarios, the unfolding of a wonderful Universal plan and profound joy in simple things. But sometimes I am so angry I mutter things that would make a hip hop artist blush and sputter. I would almost certainly not lay a finger on another human being in anger, but every so often I have luscious fantasies of people twisting in the wind and, wait for it … I am the wind.

I am so immensely proud of the spiritual path I’m on and even more proud that I have reached a place of real. I’m not pretending I want everyone who darkens my door as a client. I’m not pretending every pitch in my mailbox is a good fit for my column. I’m not pretending any more that it’s OK for a guy to look at me with longing goo-goo eyes when his status is “married” or “in a relationship.”

Boundaries. Respect. Release. Love of self.

Anger. Zen.

All of it.

Fresh start.

Amen.

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All this fuss over a game?

by Nancy Colasurdo on January 27, 2012

This one was prompted by a question a friend posed while watching a particularly tense football game last weekend The Super Bowl teams — Patriots and Giants — give insight to the answer.

Today’s Game Plan: This Is Why We Watch Sports

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Workout buzz

by Nancy Colasurdo on January 26, 2012

Let’s go inside my mind for an entire workout, shall we? In fact, let’s start prior.

I wake up this morning with a headache. First thought, no gym. Perfect excuse. Takes about five minutes for hard-driving Nancy to kick in and say, really? Get over yourself. Pop some Excedrin and let’s go. So you did yoga last night and now you feel all “obligation fulfilled.” No, it’s not. Get thee to the gym.

It begins, as always, with stretching all nice and solo in an empty aerobics room. Really started to get the value of stretching about a year ago and now it’s vital. The music gets me pumped and the blood starts flowing and then I’m on a mat doing abs. Headache is almost gone. Pat myself on the back for pushing myself.

Time to lift. Doing upper body today. At machine one, I spot a guy I’ve never seen before. Oh my. Michael Jackson is blaring in my ears and I am covertly (?) enjoying this maybe 30-year-old working a nearby machine. Each time I move to another station, the mirrors all around keep him in my sights. Thank you, whoever you are, because between watching you and the effects of highly caffeinated Excedrin kicking in, I am pushing myself hard.

Now for the elliptical. I hop on. Not one to turn on the TV when I’m doing cardio, I’m focused on the Van Halen coming through the iPod. A young woman next to me is watching “Sex and the City” and come on, I have to watch. I instantly recognize it as the last one in the  series because Carrie is cradling her broken necklace at the front desk of her Parisian hotel. Big is about to walk in.

My mind is churning. I love and hate Big simultaneously. I know what it feels like to have a guy care, not do anything about it, but never really go away either. He stakes no claim, but checks in every so often and changes the subject whenever I bring up my dating life or sex life. Big. Grrrrr. And yet, he tells Carrie she’s the one and I get teary. I don’t even have the audio and I’m all emotional.

Now Pink is coming through my earphones. Yeah, man. She’s still a rock star. She’s got her rock moves. Don’t mess. And now Harry is telling Charlotte they’re getting a Chinese baby and he shows her a picture of a gorgeous little girl. Charlotte cries and I’m teary again.

I take off one earphone and motion to the woman next to me. She looks at me quizzically and I tell her I’m all teary when I can’t even hear what she’s watching. She smiles and says, “I know. Me, too.”

We go back to our elliptical worlds. I finish up and head toward the locker room, but not before one of my gym buddies stops me. He’s a married guy who routinely tells me I’m hot and is clearly looking for some side action. I tell him I’m not interested. He pushes a bit. Really? ‘Cause as tempting as it is to hook up with a guy who’s breaking vows, wouldn’t spend a single holiday with me and hasn’t an ounce of interest in my intellect, I’m gonna pass.

Whew, another workout in the bag.

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Undecided

by Nancy Colasurdo on January 25, 2012

In most cases, taking a stand is the confident, intelligent thing to do. Ideally we learn as much as we can and then decide where we come down on an issue. But sometimes that isn’t so easy. At least not for me.

The last week or so we’ve seen a lot of Joe Paterno and Paula Deen in the news. The judgment has been raining down, but I had to step back and process a bit. And there’s nothing wrong with that.

Today’s Game Plan: What’s With Our Rush to Judgment?

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