Do you ever think about how nice a person you are? Do you strive to be nice? Does it come more naturally than that?
I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately. About how much I like to be nurturing and playful and how rarely I tap into that. Or how often I actually suppress my nicer qualities in order to be driven, career-minded, strong. Like a default self. It’s not intentional, really, more subconscious.
What does it all mean? I’m not sure, but for me there’s an element of vulnerability involved in being softer. It’s easier to be the tough broad. Harder to let down my guard.
By becoming acutely aware of this recently, I’m taking it as a sign it’s time to effect some change in myself. I’m a nice person. Why suppress it?